Pansy, Issue #8
38 pg. at half-legal size
When Laura sent me her zine for review, she described it as being about “a really tough year” in her life. This turned out to be quite an understatement— this brave, honest zine describes what I would describe as a “really, really, really tough year”.
Laura writes from inside the bad times, rather than from a safe distance, once they’re conquered, which is a courageous thing to do, but it also makes the zine hard to read at times— it’s very raw and intimate, including an open letter to a person who caused her pain.
In this zine, she is trying to put words to states of mind that resist description, writing about not wanting to leave her room, and about struggling with overwhelming feelings and memories.
Please note that in addition to generally talking about hard times, she also writes about her experiences with eating disorders, and with addiction and detox. I would recommend only reading this zine if you are in a good place vis-à-vis the above, and will note that I had to skip a few pages.
I was relieved when I got to the end of this zine, where Laura writes about how it’s been important and helpful to her to write this zine and to tell her stories, because “the stories you tell are you, the stories you don’t tell control you”. It seemed like a much-needed note of hopefulness.
As I’ve said many times, I really admire people who are willing to tell the stories of the hard times in their lives. It’s really gutsy and big-hearted to make yourself vulnerable in this way, and to offer your stories up to others. Pansy is an impressive act of bravery and vulnerability.
- Lily Pepper